THE CATHARSIS OF CRYING
Sometimes the pain of talking is too overwhelming and the pressure in my chest just bursting to come forth, and I let […]
Author: slyemm
HOW HYPERAROUSAL IMPACTS MY INSOMNIA
I’m aroused all the time. And not in a way that excites my husband. In November 2018, I took myself off for […]
WHICH IS IT? RESTLESS LEGS OR ANXIETY?
I have severe restless legs syndrome (RLS). Fatigue Trouble sleeping Muscle tension or muscle aches Trembling, feeling twitchy Nervousness or being easily startled Sweating […]
ONCE UPON A TIME: THE NIGHT I FORGOT MY MEDICATIONS
Once upon a time, I forgot to take my medication. I will never forget that night. I have lived with restless legs syndrome (RLS) […]
THE SOUND OF SILENCE
Sometimes I stop talking This irritates other people because it happens right at the moment when I am most expected to talk. […]
UPSIZING
The trouble with rapid weight gain is there’s no time to let your wardrobe adjust – one day everything fits and the next day nothing fits. Well – there’s perhaps a three-month passage of time but still, slowly morphing your wardrobe into something three sizes bigger should take time. It didn’t. Due to medication, I ballooned fast and today I had to finally accept I couldn’t squeeze my sorry ass into any of my clothes anymore.
THE LADY IN THE PURPLE HAT
By Erma Bombeck Age 3: She looks at herself and sees a Queen. Age 8: She looks at herself and sees Cinderella. […]
AGONY AUNT: PHARMACOLOGICAL INTERACTIONS WITH MY RESTLESS LEGS SYNDROME
There are many of us out there who experience the agony of restless legs syndrome (RLS). There are also many of us who suffer from other mental and/or physical conditions. Finding solutions – both pharmacological and supplementary – that ease RLS concurrently with other conditions can be problematic. And I speak from personal experience.
INTO THE NIGHT: IMSONMIA 101
Insomnia – from the Latin insomnis, that translates to “not sleeping”: in meaning “no” and somnis meaning “sleep.” I think that sums it up nicely – no […]
OH, WHAT A FEELING! THE SENSATIONS OF RESTLESS LEGS SYNDROME
Tiger beetles. I think they win the prize for the best explanation of my restless legs syndrome (RLS). Moreso than any other description I’ve […]
THE EMBODIMENT OF ME
Today I watched the film Embrace again. It should be compulsory viewing and reminded me that if I can’t love the body I’m in right now, I won’t love the body I dream of having. The perfect body is a perfect lie.
ONE GIANT LEAP FOR MANKIND
The scarecrow wanted a brain. The tin man a heart. And the lion – well he lacked courage. If your brain malfunctions, […]
HOW ARE YOU?
How are you, is so common our responses are automated. That’s fine for chit chat with the checkout chick, but when you’re with your nearest and dearest, when you have big emotions you’d love to share (or would benefit from sharing), it’s not helpful to reply with a conditioned, I’m fine. But what other options are there? Are you okay? is becoming popular, but it’s still not enough.
REPERCUSSIONS
Over the weekend, I contacted a number of friends asking how they felt when they found out about my overdose. While sometimes the truth hurts, I’m so very grateful for their honesty.
TWO WEEKS
A lot can happen in two weeks. You can lose everything, as so many people around the world are now discovering. You can become isolated, locked away, afraid and no longer in control of your life.