IT’S RAINING & POURING & MY HUSBAND IS SNORING
I haven’t been writing. I need to write. I don’t know what to write any more. I’m incredibly lost and directionless. Without writing […]
Tag: recovery
TIPPING POINTS
I’m always intrigued at how people find recovery – from anything. What is the tipping point for someone to make lasting change? For them to really dig in and do the hard yards and to stop just thinking about it.
NOT BROKEN. STUCK
I’ve started a course in Acceptance & Commitment Therapy and while I’m very early in the process (halfway through week one 😀 ) I have already found a lovely little snippet that really resonated with me. And I mean REALLY resonated!
I’m not broken. I’m stuck.
WHERE TO NOW?
The trouble with falling down a big pit is once you get back out, the rest of the world moved on and you’re still thinking about the pit. Don’t get me wrong – I’m happy to be out of that dark place! But I’ve forgotten how to live in the light.
REBIRTH
I fell off the radar because, to be honest, I’m struggling to visit here as I’m not sure it’s doing me a […]
ILLUSIONS & ILLUMINATIONS
I’m fortunate I have connections and love in my life – I am very blessed in this department. As a child, love was conditional and I felt emotionally disconnected, which had a big impact on me. But I am no longer a child, and now have strong, loving relationships and connections. I cannot imagine where I would be without those connections. In fact, I cannot imagine I would be here without them.
UNDER THE INFLUENCE
I’m floppy. I woke with a sore neck and throbbing head at 4am, gave in and took drugs at 1:30pm. Now I […]
RESILIENCE
Resilience [noun]: The capacity to recover quickly from difficulties; toughness. My physical self is very resilient. And for that, I am jolly […]
REFRAMING RELAPSE
As I mentioned in my previous post, I’ve slipped into a period of relapse. I can sit and analyse the how and […]
NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP
This little girl is on the wall next to my bed. My Nanna made it when I was little. I love it. […]
LETTING GO & GIVING UP
What’s the difference? One and the same? The end result is the same. I’ve been visiting a physio for some time now […]
I’M A PECULIAR LITTLE PERSON
A friend asked today, How are you? Now, this friend is not someone I bother saying, I’m fine to, because she knows better than to […]
A STEP FORWARD
I’ve been farting around in recovery land for years now – and I’m still lost. I know I’ve made progress – and this is a jolly good thing – but change is minimal when it comes to the movement of fork to lips. My progress is more in emotional regulation than eating behaviours.
THAT FINE LINE BETWEEN BRAVERY & STUPIDITY
I keep receiving lovely messages of support for my blog posts – thank you 🙂 I am very touched by every message, and moreso with the knowledge my innermost waffle is read and appreciated by others. It really is very comforting. I also keep receiving lovely messages saying how brave I am for sharing so openly and honestly. For revealing so many of my ugly truths and personal struggles. Again – I thank you all for the support, but I’m also left wondering, am I doing the right thing?
FAILURE
There is a magnificent quote by Ralph Waldo Emerson titled, Success. I found it many moons ago, had it printed and laminated, then stuck on the toilet wall for my children to read and absorb. Now the mirror to success is failure. And it is so easy to fear failure.