JENNY
If you know me. If you’ve met me. You know how I feel about dogs. It’s like any phobia – illogical. I look at dogs on Instagram and they’re cute and loving and pumped full of personality.
If you know me. If you’ve met me. You know how I feel about dogs. It’s like any phobia – illogical. I look at dogs on Instagram and they’re cute and loving and pumped full of personality.
I don’t know if my official mental health diagnosis is bipolar II – or not. There appears to be no consensus on anything aside from the fact I have emotional dysregulation and severe insomnia issues. In my opinion, those two things are more than enough to make anybody go crazy. But mental health diagnosis or not, my life is full of highs and lows.
It bothers me when I don’t write in my blog. Not because I think my writing is doing anyone a public service, but because this forum is my outlet for internal rumination. And if there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s internal rumination.
Wanna know what my anxiety looks like? I had an unpleasant moment at work today, then later realised I’d spent the entire day on edge as a result of that one moment. For the whole day I was slightly teary, heart pounding, wanting to punish or numb myself, and counting the minutes until I could get out of there. I felt frozen to the spot and terrified of opening my mouth – just hoping the earth would swallow me whole. This is a scenario I am all too familiar with.
I may not be a dog person, but I am acutely aware of the joy, love and hope a beloved pet can […]