THE NEVER ENDING STORY
As soon as I make a little bit of progress – and find a few moments of hope and belief – I seem determined to crash and burn, just to prove to myself recovery is either impossible, or impossibly difficult.
Author: slyemm
WHY DO I DO IT?
I am coming to the end of an eight week online course for recovery from binge eating and/or bulimia. I am about […]
YES!!
Day 30 of the challenge. I made it! In case you missed it, my challenge was to write for 30 days about […]
RECOVERING
I am recovering. I am not recovered… I am in recovery. This I believe. This I know. My recovery course is ending […]
EAT
I have to eat food. I have to eat food – six times a day. SIX TIMES A DAY!! Fuck… Well to […]
IN VERSE
I introduced myself to my fellow writers in the awakening authors course I’m starting soon. I introduced myself in verse 🙂
ONWARDS & UPWARDS
At the start of this 30 day challenge I was determined to write consistently about recovery and freedom – unfortunately I quickly […]
COUNTING CLOUDS
Depression is so dreary. I’m sure everyone is bored with it. When I share how shitty I feel, people try to cheer […]
ENDINGS & EXCUSES
I’ve been in a consistently downward spiral of late. Many people I know in “real” life are now reading this blog, so I […]
REALITY CHECK
No words today. On any given day – in any random order – for no apparent reason – I feel…
DARE TO DREAM
I’m away for a night visiting friends. Friends I’ve known so long we’ve become sisters 🙂 This is a quick trip so […]
NEARLY
Today I had a desperate, desperate urge to restrict. It was really important to me. I nearly did. I ate breakfast. Then […]
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A HAPPY MEMORY [OR A FEW]
As I feel myself sliding, down, down, down again, I want to make a really concerted effort to focus on ups – not downs. I went for a walk after gym this evening, and for the first 20 minutes I found myself falling into heavy, dark, unproductive thoughts. Then I remembered I’m supposed to be retraining my brain to think of a positive future. So I tried remembering happy times in my life – peaceful, simple times, with family and friends.
MIGHTY IRONY
Oh, the irony… I’m in the midst of a 30-day challenge to write a post every day representing positivity and/or freedom from […]
OPENING A NEW DOOR
Tomorrow is the last day of the challenge and we will have the opportunity to apply for a scholarship to an eight-week intensive writing course. I desperately want to do this course! It is prohibitively expensive, so I need that scholarship. An optional extra in today’s challenge was to do preparatory work for the application and I have just finished it. I found it eye-opening. I am starting to feel exploring this writing will lead me through a new door. I closed the music door, and have yet to find another one. I have a good feeling about this door.