FRESH AS A DAISY
Wallowing around in my little pity party yesterday was very cathartic. I feel fresh as a daisy today. Which is ironic given […]
Category: Recovery
YEARNING FOR YONDER YEARS
I hate where I’m at in life right now. I want to go back. Or forward. Anywhere but here. It is a wish guaranteed […]
NOT IN BLACK & WHITE
Perfectionistic thinking. It can be a bit of a curse. Apparently it can also be a really great personality trait – but I […]
VANQUISHING THE VOICES
I’m trying to picture a life free from disordered eating. What would it look like? How would I feel? What would be […]
END OF AN ERA
See that picture? That’s my toes. Pointing at a blank spot. A blank spot where my scales have sat since we renovated the bathroom about 12 years ago. (Before that they sat somewhere else…) For as long as I can remember, I have weighed myself first thing every morning – day in day out. Like clockwork. A special, comforting routine. I’d climb out of bed, empty bladder, strip naked, stare at fateful numbers.
INVOKING THE INNER CHILD
When I was a child I was repressed. Not in an awful way – we weren’t beaten or abused or mistreated in […]
INTO THE WOODS
I am heading into the woods. Recovery is a journey. A journey is traversed upon a road. This particular road heads into […]
CHALLENGE ACCEPTED
For anyone who hasn’t noticed, I have been struggling. Struggling with the concept of recovery. With freedom. With any kind of belief […]
MYSELF
Self-care. It’s the buzzword of the 21st century. I guess because a lot of us suck at it… There are over 242 words […]
I DREAM
I dream that one day I will be freed from the shackles of anxiety’s chaos. Freed from the pounding heart, shallow breaths […]
LOVE IS A SPLENDID THING
How easy it is to love. How hard it is to be loved… At the risk of repeating myself too many times, I […]
FINDING STRENGTH FOR RECOVERY THROUGH FATIGUE
My fatigue is back. It went away for a while. I didn’t miss it. Good riddance, I thought. Then it came back. For fuck’s […]
EXERCISING MY WAY TO GOOD MENTAL HEALTH
Exercising regularly changed my life. It toned my body, turned fat to muscle, allowed me to enjoy the great outdoors, gave me a safe […]
VIRTUES & VICES
Self compassion is tricky to master. The compassionate concepts I am encouraged to apply, were considered heinous insults throughout my formative years.
RECOVERY DREAM
Recovery is a dream. A distant, foreign concept. A world of freedom I desperately want to live in, but struggle to believe will ever […]